Some days you should just cut your loses and chalk it up as a day to just forget about. Today was one of those days, well the second half of my day. The first half, well, it started out good. Let me fill ya in...
Since my girls are so spread apart in age, 10 and 2, my baby has only us three to play with. Nobody her age. So when we go to the park all she has is Mama to play with. On the occasion there will be another little at the park and she loves it when that happens. But for the most part it is just Mama, Dada, and Sissy. And Tay can only play with her before she gets annoyed, typical siblings. So, I was on the hunt for a playgroup for Em. There had to be one. The first time I looked on my computer I found one and today was our first day to meet everyone. We met up at a park, a huge park. Lots of trees and grass, and lots of kiddos! I was so excited for Emily to finally have some others her own age to play with. We walked over to the table where some moms were chatting, we introduced ourselves really quick and before I knew it we were already playing on the playground. Now my little one is such a brave girl, no fear for this kid. She was off running, climbing, jumping, swinging, and sliding. No socializing with the other kids at all, she was just wanting to play on everything! I got to talk to some of the moms, there was a huge group of around 25 moms and kids, it was awesome. Unfortunately we had to leave a little early, we only got to stay for around an hour. But, she had a great time, and I had a nice time chatting with other stay at home moms. I am looking forward to their next activity, some kind of cooking class:) Should be interesting, and fun!!
We got home and I was starving, I heated up leftovers from lastnight's dinner. I had made brown rice mixed with minced garlic and some Mrs. Dash Onion and Herb seasoning. OMG! So good. For awhile there I was having to choke down brown rice, so I finally found a way to jazz it up. Thank goodness, since brown rice is pretty much a staple in my house. The baby had two pieces of turkey, a slice of toast with peanut butter, and some strawberries. Cleaned her plate! She must have been as hungry as I was.
The afternoon came and went and before I knew it, it was getting into the early evening. I was feeling antsy. I changed out of my pajamas and into some shorts and laced up my shoes. Since my husband was home I was excited to be able to go on a run by myself, I get to do that every once in awhile. It is a nice treat for me. I grabbed my iPhone and my headphones, I was ready. Now, this is where my mixed feelings come into play. I should've just stayed home, I think.
First, neither my Pandora OR my I Heart Radio would load. So, no music. I waited and waited and I started my warm up. After almost 7 mins I pulled the headphones out, wrapped them around my phone, and stuck my phone in the pocket. I was so annoyed.
Second, it was hot and windy. Dry, and the air didn't seem so clean. Everytime I would breathe in I felt like I was chewing on cotton! I should've turned around, gone back home and gotten back into my pajamas. But no. I kept going.
Third, my thighs rub together, yes I said it and admitted to it. They rub together. I hate it and wish they were separated but they aren't. I'm working on it:) Anyways, the shorts I put on are ones that I have had problems with before. My thighs were eating my shorts!! So I was constantly pulling at them. I felt ridiculous and probably looked like an idiot. Those are going in the trash, those thigh eating shorts!
Fourth, my cardio this week has SUCKED! I was on a good running streak where I could go 20, 25 and one time, 30 minutes straight. All while pushing a 24 pound kiddo in the jogger. I don't know what happened. I have been hurtin:( Today my lungs felt like they were on fire!! Every breath I thought I was going to die, but I kept going. Why? I just don't know sometimes.
All these factors are why I have mixed feelings about today. Should I have just stayed in my pajamas and skipped the run? Or is any run a good thing? Also, since I am on this whole rant, I have yet to see ANY physical changes. Still chubby, still have a stomach that sticks out, still have chub rub on my legs....etc. I know the changes will come, and that my body will eventually catch up. But I am starting to get a little impatient. ARGH! Being a girl sucks sometimes.
That is all. I actually feel better.
Have a great rest of the night, Friends!
